On June 10th 1999, my dreams came true when my daughter was born (I will refer to her as monkey 1), I was a mom. She was born at 1am and my world changed. I held her (and all you moms know how this feels), and told her I was her mommy and I was going to take the best care ever of her. What a precious time in our life. Sidebar Comment: why do "they" never reveal how painful and overwhelming childbirth is? C'mon now, it is the most intense, pain and incredibly physical experience ever!!!! Is it a code not to share how it "really" feels?
Any who, we are home, we are happy and adjusting to new baby, new schedule and realizing how much work baby is (I can remember not being able to shower until after noon), one baby was so overwhelming, busy and delicious! Back to work after 2 months leave (I went back a month early to get 1 day off a week, it was strategic and the best decision because it allowed me months of flexibility and extended my time off). Life was great, I had tremendous balance, I was home more than working but I got a taste of dressing normal, being around adults, planning and keeping my pen in the game. I was SOOOOO happy, I was a HIPP Mom before I even knew what a HIPP mom was! AND, my baby slept through the night 7pm to 7am at 9 weeks old, I thought I was all that and a bag of chips, I had this mom thing down! All was grand until my company asked me to come in 3 days a week (baby was now 1 year old). Ugh, I went from feeling completely balanced to feeling like I did not see my girl 3 days in a row (T,W,TH), this was not going to work! This actually turned out to be a good thing for me. I learned my threshold as a mom and basically it taught me about how much time I was willing to be away from my child, I did this arrangement for a few months and realized that I needed to be home more than at the office, fortunately, my company agreed to go back and I cut my pay to be in the office just 2 days each week (which gave me some balance outside of the new demands of being a mom). It was great for me to get a taste of something outside of monkey 1 but was great for monkey 1 because she was with me most of the week and with Gramma on the other 2 days, what a blessed life my baby had! I worked this balanced schedule until baby #2 was born. Things could not have been better. I had incredible days at home with monkey 1, breakfast, reading, play time, a long walk outside in the stroller, out door play, back inside for lunch, story time, nappie time, then play time, dinner, daddy home, lots of fun on the floor with daddy, bath time (sometimes before daddy) bedtime story, and baby laid down in crib at 7pm (on the dot)! Wake up, repeat, and on Tuesday and Thursdays, baby is driven to Gramma's (and Gramma did the same schedule)! It was mommy bliss! Balance, happy, challenged but loving everything about being a mom, so much that we had baby #2 on the way. Stay tuned for more on what happens when baby #2 arrives and my quest for balance and being a mom. How do you juggle 2 babies and flexibility to be home!? Let me give you a hint: SAHM or bust!
Have a HIPP day!!!!!!!
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